Top 379: My absolute favorite song (#120 – #113)

114
Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds
Love Letter

My Rating: 9.14
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I could stop the countdown now. This is my #1 as of October 9, 2013.Truly. This song has been my favorite song for the past year, maybe two years. I’ve often pushed onward with this countdown for the purpose of getting to this song. I have listened to “Love Letter” more than any other song; I am certain. What the hell did I ever know about alt-rock, post-punk singer-songwriter Nick Cave prior to about two years ago? Nothing. Perhaps I had heard of him, but I had never heard him. Then, one day, I was browsing a friend’s Spotify playlist. I had to listen to a song called “Love Letter”. And it filled my heart was aching and yearning and passion and all those squishy things that a song should do, but in a richer, more piercing way than any other song I’d ever heard. Just…perfect.

So why only #114? I didn’t know how to rate a song I had never heard before. Each time I heard it, I’d give it a higher rating. In late December 2011, I went through my song list and gave each song a “final” rating. I wrote at the time:

“From unknown to top 10…if i had more time… Hard to know if it’s just a phase. When I finally post this, how will I feel about this rating?”

It would have actually been #11 had I just gone with the very last rating. Instead, it lands down here. Two years is a long time, and, as I’ve made apparent several times, my affinity and nostalgia for some of the lighter fare in this countdown has faded. I hesitate to say my tastes are more sophisticated now. After all, the album “No More Shall We Part” was reviewed by one critic as being at risk of devolving “into schmaltz” (I learn from Wikipedia). So it makes sense why I love this song. But even those people who rate songs at RateYourMusic.com like it; it cracks the top 5000.

As I did my ratings for this countdown, there were 5 or 6 songs I figured had a chance to be #1, and any of them could have wound up on top. If I were doing a countdown based on what I love today, “Love Letter” would be on top. I am certain.

Officially, I have no blog posts posted for the last 2 1/2 months. (I have three drafts that I’ve posted and then rescinded). A post about blog posting can come later. Perhaps I’ll be starting back up again. At the very least, I’ll play catch-up with my Top 379 recaps. Even though most of the songs no longer inspire me as they once did, as they apparently did as recently as two years ago when I rated them, I still feel an obligation to myself to see this through. Unfortunately, at the pace I’ve been posting, it will take me years to get through, and the songs will be even further removed from my present affinities. Though, I must admit, whenever I cringe over a song I need to post, and perhaps there are weeks I procrastinate before posting it, when I finally get around to it, and I listen to the song several times, that affection returns. There were genuine reasons I’ve rated these songs highly, and, I know I still fear judgement for sharing them.

Anyway, I will present my write-up of #114 in full here. I don’t know who’s reading Toastiest besides my father. (Hi, Dad). I suppose I’ll put this link on Facebook. If you’ve seen this via Facebook, I’ll kindly ask that you actually comment in here if you have a comment, just because I don’t share this blog with all my Facebook friends, for various reasons. I can’t quite tell these days if Facebook is still announcing to all your friends when you comment on someone else’s page. I know, I can’t really control this. Enough of this social sharing ruminating…

As I’ve done before, here’s the recap of the rest. Maybe I’ll get to #112 on this quiet Friday night.

120
Alias
More Than Words Can Say

My Rating: 9.12
Visitor Rating: 4.00
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119
The Proclaimers
I’m Gonna Be (500 Miles)

My Rating: 9.13
Visitor Rating: 7.30
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118
Berlin
Take My Breath Away

My Rating: 9.13
Visitor Rating: 8.00
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117
Michael Bolton
Now That I Found You

My Rating: 9.14
Visitor Rating: 7.00
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116
Whitney Houston
The Greatest Love Of All

My Rating: 9.14
Visitor Rating: 9.50
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115
Police
Every Breath You Take

My Rating: 9.14
Visitor Rating: 6.00
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114
Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds
Love Letter

My Rating: 9.14
Visitor Rating: NR
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113
Bette Midler
The Rose

My Rating: 9.15
Visitor Rating: NR
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Top 379 trudges along (#131 – #121)

Two more months of posts. I just got back into the mode of posting one nearly every day. Why? Isn’t this a lost cause? Am I not reliving the past, a past that by no means warrants conjuring? The romantic in me barely survives, and for as much as I’ve thought that flame deserves to keep burning, I’m sorely tempted to snuff it out. I’m afraid I’ll just continue talking in riddles if I go on with any attempts to write about this. I’ll go on, anyway. I haven’t done a public ramble in awhile.

This list is my life. This list was my life. This list bears no resemblance to my life. All of the above.

Then again, this blog bears no resemblance to my life. Even the darkest, most personal passages that are still out there for public consumption don’t dig as deeply or go as dark as the absolute truth. Ok, that doesn’t equate to “no resemblance”.

This wasn’t supposed to be another one of my meta-blogging posts…but I’m in a no self-censorship mode at the moment, so I shall trudge along…

As the Top 379 trudges along…I want to finish this up. I should’ve hit #1 back in January if I had stuck with the post-a-day plan. I didn’t. And posting these songs, that occasionally mean a great deal to me, is like chopping down a tree in the middle of the forest. For whatever reason, it’s important to me that people rate the songs, even when, and especially when, they hate the song. Because, for as much as I don’t need to defend any music I like, if you think a song is a 2.7/10, I will take that into consideration and my opinion on the matter may evolve in a way that’s beneficial to me.

Enough blathering for now…here are the last 11 songs posted to the Top 379. I think the songs are becoming more and more awesome, as songs of a countdown should. Rate them. It makes me happy when you rate them, so why wouldn’t you?

131
Eric Carmen
All By Myself

My Rating: 9.09
Visitor Rating: 6.00
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130
Toto
I’ll Be Over You

My Rating: 9.09
Visitor Rating: 9.00
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129
Harold Melvin and The Blue Notes
If You Don’t Know Me

My Rating: 9.09
Visitor Rating: 4.00
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128
Chicago
Will You Still Love Me

My Rating: 9.09
Visitor Rating: NR
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127
Fisher
You

My Rating: 9.10
Visitor Rating: NR
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126
Whitney Houston
One Moment In Time

My Rating: 9.10
Visitor Rating: 9.00
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125
Willy DeVille
Storybook Love

My Rating: 9.11
Visitor Rating: NR
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124
Nat King Cole
When I Fall In Love

My Rating: 9.11
Visitor Rating: 8.50
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123
Barry Manilow
Weekend In New England

My Rating: 9.11
Visitor Rating: 10.00
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122
Carly Simon
Let The River Run

My Rating: 9.11
Visitor Rating: 10.00
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121
Debbie Gibson
Lost in Your Eyes

My Rating: 9.12
Visitor Rating: NR
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Crouton du jour no. 56

You know our love was meant to be
the kind of love to last forever.
And I want you here with me
from tonight to the end of time.



15-20 years ago, this probably was not an appropriate song for a mix tape dedicated to a girl I was merely interested in dating.

On second thought, screw that.

I will never apologize for loving Cetera.