Lying in bed. Aremid is a pillow. Good boy. Just had as bad or worse a morning as yesterday, and didn’t even have dialysis last night. Very wiped out, physically and mentally. Can’t imagine anything can be done for either side.

Oh, I want to write all of these thoughts, but I know they all translate to “warning signs” and then people would get worried, but that helps no one.

No worries…I’ve got these pets that I marginally take care of, and I’ll keep doing that. Of course, they’re old so…

And if I cAn’t work, there’s no money to buy food and meds for the pets so…

This is just jibberish…

But an accurate portrayal of how things feel right now…

Well, no…I’m censoring myself…things feel worse