True Dialyze

Well, my kidneys worked without any help for 12309 days. As of today, they’ll no longer do their job without the aid of technology that’s only been around for a half-century. Ok, so I’m being a little melodramatic. They’re still working, but at 8% and declining, it’s time for dialysis.

It is weighty realization for me to consider that, for the rest of life, I will either be on dialysis or using a kidney that once belonged to someone else. I have known for twenty years that this day would come, but I am still not ready for it. I had kinda hoped I’d have accomplished a few more things by now--some pretty basic things. Indeed, I’ve spent many years certain that life would be quite bleak if I hadn’t accomplished those few things by the time I needed dialysis.

Me and Herman Pre-D
Herman and Toastie (08-28-2009)

Needless to say, I’ve had to recalibrate my mindset slightly, or else I wouldn’t be able to face any of this at all, let alone appreciate the things I do have in my life. I don’t think I have what one would consider an especially positive attitude. I’m merely doing what must be done to survive.


2 thoughts on “True Dialyze

  1. Wishing you strength and fortitude today and for all the days to come. I hope that dialysis will help you to feel better than you do now.

  2. Hope your first week on dialysis is going well. Don’t be afraid to share your pets and dialysis experiences on this blog or another one you start. Real people aren’t compartmentalized. The web needs more real and original content. Although,its rough when people are interested in you because of some horrible condition you have no control over. They may express pity but they go away with Schadenfreude.

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