Serious question. I’m talking about the ghosts in our heads, the ones that prevent us from moving forward. And I don’t necessarily mean specific people…I mean events and mistakes you’d rather forget. I’ve got lots of these. Lots. Right now, I’ve got a couple of months stuck in my head that I’d just like to extract.
May 2008. Details matter not for the purpose of this exercise. But I keep beating myself up for it all.
April 2007. Ditto.
April 1996. Ditto.
And like I said, lots in between.
I want to take it all and roll it up into a ball and chuck it into the Grand Canyon. However, I imagine whirling this ball of crap so hard that it circles the globe and smacks be right in the back of the head. Actually, that’s pretty much what happens.
I realize this is all quite generic, and, at the same time, one of those “huh?” kind of posts.
bullcitydave 
The Burning Man method. Create objects that represent each month and ceremoniously burn them. You don’t have to go to Nevada over Labor Day … make your own.
The message I keep hearing from science, gurus, therapists and friends is that we don’t get rid of old stuff in the brain. Instead, we build new things (that we presumably want) that take front and center after we repeatedly focus our attention on them.
That’s what I’m told, anyway. And that’s what I’m hoping to do with my own needs for change.
Toastie – If you figure it out, let me know. I wonder if that’s how ECT actually helps people: by just fucking with their brains until they feel better, or different, or forget some bad stuff.
Bill – Most of my neo-pagan friends say they know they’re manipulating symbols in their heads when, say, performing a ritual. Oddly, none of my Xian friends will say that. Maybe the difference is that my neo-pagan friends on some level *actually do think or believe* they’re taking concrete, or at least non-symbolic, action, and with my Xian friends, it’s tacit.
Phil – What happens if the bad crap piles up faster than the good (or at least different) stuff?